Things I’m thinking about:

  • I am a much more sane person when I take regular internet sabbaticals. I took one last week, and emerged a pleasanter creature.
  • Clothes shopping is not nearly as fun when you don’t fit in the same kind of clothing you’re used to wearing: like, say, jeans. I’m doing better with the whole body image insecurity thing on a macro level, but sometimes it’s three steps forward, one step back. Dresses with tights and large sweaters, you will be my friends from now on.
  • This whole Walmart vs. Ashton Kutcher thing. Basically, everything that is wrong with society today. I give this stuff way too much space in my head.
  • I am generally tanking at NaNoWriMo. I squeeze in some writing whenever I can (2,516 words Monday, 0 Tuesday, 65 Wednesday, 1,035 yesterday, 0 today), but I did not fully think through this whole “Let’s start a brand new career AND write a novel in 30 days!” thing. It’s just bad timing. I’m trying to give myself grace and not take it so seriously.
  • On a happier note, how did I get so lucky that I am doing what I love for a living? It still hasn’t sunk in yet. Then I remember it isn’t just luck, I put in a lot of work to get to this place. I do not give myself enough credit.
  • I am knee-deep in the latest Game of Thrones book, and Jeez Louise, it’s like my version of crack. I’m sucked right back into Westeros. It’s pure escapism, of which I need a little right now.
  • Losing a relationship with a loved one to drug abuse is painful. So painful that I’m avoiding the issue, but my heart just hurts right now.
  • Sometimes my feelings lie, but hey, there they are, and I’m acknowledging them instead of wiping them away with Cabernet. This is a step in the right direction.
  • This song. We’re seeing the Black Crowes tonight, and this is my favorite of theirs.

So yes, I’m currently pondering ten or so different blog posts, but I can’t just zero in on one. Welcome to my brain. Pull up a chair, may I offer you some Candy Cane tea? I’ll try to keep it down in here.

After writing this, I became determined to clear my head of all this shizz by looking for the bright spots.Β I prowled around the house this afternoon with my SLR, looking for the things that bring me the most joy.

Things for which I’m thankful:

  • My husband, who saw how excited I got over a signed copy of this gorgeous book and bought it for me, even though it was full-price.

Gilbert

  • My husband once again, who knew how much I wanted to see Pearl Jam in concert, but knew I couldn’t afford it on my new freelance salary, so he surprised me with tickets. Yes, he is amazing, and no, you can’t have him.
  • That I got to see this in real life, even if just once.

Eiffel

  • The smell of cinnamon warmth spreading through my house after purchasing two bucks worth of scented pinecones.

pinecones

  • My Turkish coffee maker. Best $12.50 I ever spent.

Turkish coffee

  • The rain. Hallelujah baby Jesus.

rain2

  • Β The view from my office window. It’s so green it hurts my eyes–but in a good way.

Rainy View

  • Β Books. Always.

Books

  • The colors in this perfectly perfect abalone shell, which is no larger than my fingernail.

Shell2

  • This face.

this face2

On that note, I’ll leave you with my favorite Pearl Jam song. Don’t worry, I’ll be back to tell you how amazing they are live.

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Comments

Welcome to My Brain: Things I Am Thinking About This Week — 40 Comments

  1. I enjoyed reading your post.I agree you need some breaks or you’ll burn out.We can’t let it happen to an excellent blogger story writer and everything else that goes on in your life.
    Best wishes to you.
    Ranu

  2. That shell – the colours! Beautiful πŸ˜€ I’m so glad that you’re happy and freelancing and having a wonderful time of it. That is TRUE joy and freedom.

    Your coffee pot is a very pretty thing. How does it work? I have one of the Italian Aluminium ones, which sends the steam up through the coffee, and though I don’t often use it, when I do, the coffee tops EVERYTHING. I’ll assume you know to put a sprinkle of salt in with the grounds to take the bitterness off and leave it smooooooth (Italian style πŸ˜‰ )

    I, too, have seen the Eiffel Tower once. It was lit up with sparkling giant LED lights, and it was like a galaxy had fallen into the centre of Paris in the shape of the tower, and was shining all over the place. It was stunningly beautiful πŸ™‚
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    • Thank you! You brew the grounds (very fine grounds) with the water, some cardamom and sugar, then let it bubble. SO GOOD. It makes me feel like I’m far away. πŸ™‚
      The Eiffel Tower is something I didn’t expect to find as beautiful as it was – breathtaking!

  3. Wow, this is awesome. I’m sorry about your lost relationship and totally feel you on the jeans and big sweaters thing. I think I’ve gained 10 pounds since like June. Sigh…
    I like your brain. Oh also? I signed up for Nano and have 40 words. I’m not doing any more. It’s just too much and I don’t want to edit hastily typed words, anyway.
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  4. I love Pearl Jam and the Black Crowes, so, yeah, a little jealous, but I hope you have a blast. I’m intrigued by the Turkish coffee maker. Finally, I just finished binge-watching three seasons of Game of Thrones, and I loved it. The bad side of binge-watching is when you get caught up and have to wait for a new episode like everyone else. I’ve been missing it, so maybe I should read the books!
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  5. I’m a lover of Game of Thrones – unfortunately, I do not possess the ability to stay focused long enough to read the series, but wish I could so I get my Game of Thrones fix via HBO. I have been struggling with body image issues since turning 30, prior to that I was always a stick. Have fun at the concerts, btw!
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    • Thank you! And yeah, they need a lot of focus – the one I’m reading right now is over 1,000 pages. The TV series comes pretty close to being as amazing, which is more than you can say for a lot of adaptations.

  6. A big empathic “Yes!” to the point about clothes shopping. I hate clothes shopping for this reason now. I gained a bunch of weight over the past year and crossed the threshold into plus sized clothing and I think I’m kinda in some sort of disassociation denial about it. And maybe also a little angry that I’m now supposed to shop in the same section of the store as my mother. *sigh*

  7. I loved getting a peek inside your brain, Natalie! I have about ten partially formed blog posts in my head right now too – if you figure out how to get them out of the brain and onto the paper (or laptop), let me know. I suppose they’ll make their way out eventually, but it’s slow going sometimes.
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  8. I only recently got hooked on Game of Thrones, but not in book form. My wife has read them, but seems to think if she tells me what’s going to happen, it will ruin the whole thing for me. Drat!

    You’re coffee maker is interesting. I have a love of things that require process and patience. More often than not, the outcome is well worth the extra effort.
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