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I Would Change My Name — 60 Comments

  1. I was visiting my old high school/childhood friends at a lake party thing in late summer 1992. I was graduating college and everyone else was almost there, too. My politics had become more pronounced and vocal. Two of the girls, there, were getting married over the next year. They talked like they lived in the 1950s. Suddenly, the liquor got the best of me and I shouted, “taking your husband’s name is kind of dumb, you should have you your own identity!”

    We were in the deep south. Almost all of the party was conservative. I was suddenly the turd in the punch bowl.

    My wife has been married twice before me. Of course, I was divorced. I actually asked her to keep her name. She declined. She wanted to be Mrs. Burson. It was her decision.

    I’m glad you are at peace with Natalie DeYoung. She’s just as cool as Natalie Ricci.
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    • I wasn’t going to editorialize further, but my name is actually super-duper long now, because I kept all the names. I have a really long middle name now (not my smartest impulse decision). I swap them around depending on what mood I’m in. It’s like having a secret identity.

  2. I liked this – a lot. Especially the end part where you want to “protect” Natalie DeYoung. I felt like I was peering inside your brain, watching the *knowing* come.

    P.S. I was one of those “militant feminists” who hyphenated my name when I married my husband. And now, I’m the lazy lesbian-feminist whose deep abhorrence of filling out forms and standing in lines has kept me from legally disposing of the second part of the hyphen, even though I divorced my husband twenty years ago, and recently married a woman.
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  3. And has this caused any problems anywhere along the lines?

    I’m finding fewer people care about women not taking their husband’s names now. Maybe because we’re more global and there are many cultures in which a married woman keeps her name. Maybe it’s because of bureaucracy and no one has time for that BS anymore. And maybe it’s because we’ve all started listening to the people before us who fought for women to be equal. Maybe it’s none of this, I don’t know.
    I just know I’m always taken by surprise when someone becomes indignant over a woman not taking her husband’s last name because it’s something I don’t hear too often anymore.
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    • Yeah, actually, I have had problems with it. Not everyone understands the impulse to keep your name, which is why I wanted to write about it and tell my side of the story. I had some pretty complicated reasons…

  4. i was you on line for the fairy tale and i changed my name without much thought. i liked my husbands name better and my name already had some baggage attached. But i admit, for awhile i missed that girl but soon i was the me, making new memories and walking down new roads. honestly i am my new name now (17 years) as much as my old. no matter what the name says, you’re you. 🙂
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  5. Natti, I love reading your blog. When I got married, I was too young to consider what I was giving up when I changed my last name. I wish I was as thoughtful as you and had hyphenated my name. I often think about changing it. I love being a Spriestersbach but I do feel like some of me was left behind when I left out Espinosa (heritage, family, acplishment etc…).

    • Had I been married a few years prior, I wouldn’t have given it a second thought. As someone with a history of losing herself in other people, I’m glad I waited until I could get a firmer grasp on who I was.

  6. I see plenty of hyphenated names,to me it’s okay if the people who like them have them, it’s really a matter of choice. I just erased one and replaced it with the other.

    • They don’t bother me now, but for some reason I always felt other people’s judgement on those hyphenated names; all part of caring too much what other people think. I’m learning how to not do that anymore.

  7. Names are such an integral part of our identity. My fifth grader tells me she wants to change her first name and my heart goes cold, thinking of the hours I spent at a spreadsheet of baby girl names choosing it. I kept my name when I married at 35, and my father-in-law was perplexed. “I mean, I know movie stars do that, but regular people?”
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    • They are! I used to want to change my name so badly in the fifth grade; I felt that Natalie was “boring.” However, I grew to love it, and now I wouldn’t change it if you paid me. It’s who I am.

  8. I’m not that tied to my name. I changed it when I got married then changed it back when I got divorced. Besides it being a pain in the butt, it wasn’t too big a deal to me. I can see how people who are published or have jobs which required licenses would feel differently.
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  9. I love that you weren’t ready to give up on her yet. You know… I never thought about this whole thing until—JUST NOW. Seriously. When I got married I was like woo hoo! New name! lol

    But it is weird. When i saw my maiden name now in places I feel like that was a totally different person. I have certificates and diplomas with that name too. But it’s still me. I’m circling now, ha ha Totally enjoyed reading this!
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  10. I loved this. I’ve pondered this my whole life. As an only daughter I pondered what it meant to give up my last name at marriage. I’ve so strongly indentified with it. I just couldn’t even picture getting married, so that was a reach. Here I am creeping toward 40, still not any closer to marriage and I think I am less attached to it than ever. Only because I dream of having pen names. 🙂
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  11. As a genealogist, I’m glad you kept your maiden name. Future relatives will be happy you did too. I posted recently about what our names would be if our society was matrilineal. I found out several cultures are. And that is really was just 50/50 that were a patrilineal society. I enjoyed your post – it doesn’t seem like it should be possible to change your identity. Much less have to report to someone else in order to make it official!

  12. That was powerful! I think in another world, I might be more attached to my name, but honestly- my last name is filled with issues. It’s not my real heritage, but my adopted one – and though it’s glamorous (Chenell) – it’s not my bloodline. So I was happy to take Andrew’s name, though I don’t have a ton of pride there either. And I don’t want my bio dads name cause he’s an idiot, so maybe I’d like to just keep my maiden maiden name (my mom’s maiden name). Or maybe, I’ll make one up. Gah. This is clearly an issue for me!
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  13. “This self was a gnarled web of contradictions I was just learning to fight for, because I finally understood that no one else was going to do it for me.” It took me so long to learn that lesson.
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  14. Kellie hyphenated her last name when we married: Bertsch-Cereola. She quickly got tired of writing that monstrosity and dropped her maiden name. Kellie is no maiden.
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  15. I had this exact same experience. I ended up not changing my name at all when we went to get a marriage license. It was only after being married for about a year that I decided to change it. It was really complicated for me to let go of being just Samantha Brinn, but after awhile, I decided that Samantha Brinn Merel is a girl I very much like, and can be proud of.
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  16. I used to abide by all of those “rules”. It’s funny how it all melts away when you suddenly find yourself in a situation where the road ahead is uncharted–I love it! We make up the rules as we go along. This was very touching.

  17. That gave me chills. I too always thought of myself as more of a “friendly feminist.” Marriage and motherhood have pushed me a little further away from the border of friendly, and it wasn’t until years after I changed my name that it ever began to occur to me that maybe it shouldn’t have been a given. I loved this, Natalie.
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  18. I love how your name came to symbolize your self – the part of you that is separate from the “us” that happens when we marry or commit to spend a lifetime with another person. M and I didn’t want to hyphenate – our names are already long, and it just didn’t sound good. So we made up a new one. 🙂 If you Google my last name, you’ll probably only find me.
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  19. This resonates with me like tuning fork. I have had illustrations published in my “married name” because an ex-boy friend mistakenly told an editor, who used an old phone number, that my husband’s last name was now mine. No one told the ex that, and even though he described himself as an iconoclastic feminist, he was nothing of the sort. My name appeared incorrectly with my work despite my correction which I had emailed to my editor prior to publication. Grrrrrr. Your essay speaks to a conflict women still face, but is barely acknowledged. I believe you made the right choice, and reading about your experience reminds me of how many women still grapple with the ‘name issue’

  20. It was never a thought in my head to change my name. We are three sisters, and I wanted to make sure my parents knew someone still had their name. THEIR name, because my mom took my dad’s last name.

    Also, I was too lazy to change all my accounts and license and whatnot.

    In traditional Spain women don’t change their names.

    This has become a list of weird commentary. Sorry.
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  21. Ooooh, I love this. I didn’t change my name when I got married, for many of the reasons you listed. Sarah Rudell was on my transcripts and diplomas and my classroom door, and I was just going to become someone else? And then when my daughter was born, I didn’t want her to be confused by mommy having a different last name or having teachers think we were divorced… not that that all matters. Anyway, I went in to change my name four years after the wedding (so now I have two last names, no hyphen, and I still just just my maiden name at work). I had to appear in court with two witnesses. I had to testify about why I wanted to change my name now and why I didn’t when I got married. I felt like I was being hauled into failed feminist court…
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  22. Given that my father and I are no longer on speaking terms, I am glad I no longer carry his last name. While I will, in some way, always be some form of my maiden name, I am happy I have taken my husband’s name. I think Ulmanis fits me perfectly and with the kind of man I am married to I am proud to take his last name.

    As we like to say these days, “Team Ulmanis…F-Yeah!” Cheesy, but hilarious to us.
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